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we hit a little rough patch, but all is better. i cant wait until summer, we get 2 whole months together!!! woooo

i'm kind of bummed, and im not sure why. i think it's from being stuck at school all weekend, which is nothing new...i perfer not to go home. but weekend duty means i cant leave even if i wanted to. tomorrow is our 11 month anniversary, this is the longest relationship ive been in and the last one i hope to be in. she's everything ive ever wanted in a person and more, just thinking of her makes me smile. she is worth all the bullshit that comes with being gay. sometimes i just wish she would think.

long time no write...

lets see new stuff:

*i had an outpatient surgery
* im an RA now
* 10 months with chels!!!
* v-day and chelsey will actually be here
*im actually doing well in school
*my fellow ra's think they'll "convert" me by the end of the semester
* paralegal sucks...i want to do surgery tech but i dont have a car

ha so we talked
and were fine
as usual
<3

i love that woman, its hard to believe it'll be 8 months on monday

i cant win for losing today,

i woke up this morning and wrote chelsey a sweet little email.
and yet we still get into a tift this morning. i fell back asleep and woke up cranky, and she was already cranky so all i know is it ended with me yelling at her to shut up and i hung up.
and we've been arguing via text all day. i "lost" my red cell so i used the pink one to call it. well i called chels by accident and i didnt want to make her angrier so i sent her a text saying i didnt mean to call her. i called my red phone turns out it was in my pocket...
well she just texted me back saying wow thanks.
!!!!!!!!!!
ive been trying to apologize all freaking day

i dont know what else to do

my feelings are hurt.
tonight was opening night of my first ever productions, and no one came.
i told everyone back in august so i expected at least one person...oh well
im 18 i should be over this. it shouldnt hurt my feelings

its been forever long since ive written on here. and a lot has changed...i have a girlfriend, and im in college, and im living on my own.

chels is so amazing, i have no idea what i did to deserve such an amazing, loving person. i hate so much that she lives so close but we still only see each other twice a month. its much better then korea, yet it still feels like it. but something is better then nothing.

college, is...college. it may only be community college but it still kicks my ass.

and living own my own is living in the dorms...but my roommate has basically moved in with her girlfriend so im all by myself. ive definately regressed, i dont really have any friends here and i perfer to pay so i can eat in my room just so i dont have to eat by myself in the cafeteria for free. its a strange thing to get used to. wooo and im done.
im getting emotional now

haha

 blah blah blah

today i am going prom dress shopping with Kelly and Veronica. woo hoo

oh and my 34 year old and i are through... how sad

lol not really